So, I just posted about 5 minutes ago and right after I clicked the publish post my phone went a beeping. I lunged off the bed thinking it was Hubby texting me during super bowl half time. It WAS NOT him... I repeat WAS NOT him and now I'm posting on here as a distraction for my cell phone and the evil RS that is sending me really hot messages on this Sunday night.RS is in town. RS is in town 7 minutes away from my apartment at his hotel. RS is texting me. RS knows that I have no self control and he's testing my boundaries. RS just skyped me. FUCK RS. I mean honestly FUCK RS... Yes, I'm married and yes I wouldn't have done it if I didn't really love him. I love him and I love the way our life is and where it's going. But something you need to realize is that up until oh I don't know mid December I was fucking around with RS also. I'm a psycho screwed up case study- I know. Hubby (formerly Mr. Right #1) knows about RS they actually met once at an RS concert; although they didn't know that they fucked the same gal! Anyways, Hubby and rightfully so has asked that I cease conversation with RS and I'm trying. I'm really trying. But somewhere along the well I developed feelings for RS and him messaging me and some of the stuff he's currently saying isn't helping. Up until a month and a half ago I occasional entertained flitting thoughts of being Mrs. RS granted these thoughts were when I was fucking wasted and an emotional nutcase.
Ugh, fuck me. Seriously. FUCK FUCK FUCK. If the Super bowl could end now, I could call Hubby say goodnight and turn my phone off. Sometimes it's hard to do the right thing. But the more I'm thinking about it the fact is: I love the way he PLAYED me. Despite how fucking gorgeous and sexy he is, I love the way he PLAYED me we won't be playing anyone. Done. Thanks for the vent session guys!
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Its time to party and I'm sick sick sick
I don't know if its all the traveling I've been doing but I'm really super incredibly sick. I've been laying in bed at my apartment all day. Thought I'd wake up and check out the blog and whoa comments/ questions. I flew home yesterday (I was very under the weather already) and I am NO better now. I'm "home" I guess I can use the term loosely as I'm about to sublet my little apartment, pack up my things, put it in storage and spend the rest of the season rooming it with my hubby in _____ city. How exciting... in the grand scheme of things its great and yes I really am excited. However, the fact that I have to fucking pack up all my shit and move to a new place for a few months before we figure out where we are going to spend the off-season/next season (up for contract extension after this one) it's going to be a fun few months. I'm exhausted just thinking about it. I'm not really feeling up to my usual witty self - sorry guys. But I will touch base on a few questions that were commented to me regarding my last posting. So here goes:
Ellie: You commented that I probably shouldn't reference certain things and that you were able to figure out who I was talking about regarding the players wife who is preggers now and that she wouldn't be too happy for me discussing it. I'm going to call bull-shit on this, only because I didn't say anything bad about her- just saying the original story, her and her husband are absolutely beautiful together and ohhh yeah, we're still friends and she knows about the blog. So I call bullshit. Also, I'd like to point out that you should get an award if you can figure out the player and the wife I was speaking about. Because we're talking hundreds of options, ECHL, AHL, NHL and all those overseas teams. So thanks for reading but lets not try to stir the non existent pot!
Anny: "What do hockey players look for in girls?" Well my dear, that's a great question. What are you looking for from a hockey player? If you have a pussy and you like to fuck than you are probably going to make the cut for a hockey player. A lot of the guys will fuck anything- its terrible. The biggest pickup for them is that they play hockey and that's that. If you're looking for a one night thing than buy a guy a beer and bam. If you're wondering long term which is probably more so what your question was based of off; I don't know. What does any guy look for? I don't think it's necessarily anything different than a normal relationship. I've seen short girls, tall girls, petite ones and girls that are a little bit bigger than average. I think the biggest thing that they look for is someone who is compatible with not only them; but someone who can handle the lifestyle. You need to realize that it's not always glamorous. Your boyfriend/husband is away A LOT, you spend a lot of time ALONE and you need to exhibit a strong trust level to succeed. But I don't think it's anything specific; I think just like anyone else it just needs to click. The only advice I could give you when seeking a hockey player is to not be a puck bunny. Bunnies are jokes and are treated as such within the locker room.
Cailey: " love the post! How did the other wives and girlfriends react when you got married? Glad you had a nice break :)" I'm not the first eloper on the team! Thankfully! There was no judgment and they were all pretty okay with it... especially since a few of them were in Vegas with us! I did have one of the other girlfriends give me a bad attitude for a few days; but I learned it's because she asked her guy to get married in Vegas (drunken request) and she was denied. If only I had been so lucky hahahahaha JUST KIDDING!
Alemica: "Are you guys planning on having an 'actual' wedding? Like, with friends and family and stuff?" Well, if my Mother gets her way then yes. I really could care less. I've never really dreamed of a big wedding with all the bells and whistles. Its not something I was hell bent on having. But my mother is my polar opposite and would really love the opportunity to participate in an actual wedding. Mr. Right #1 and I are in talks regarding this; I think his parents would like to be included as well. I'll keep you updated; I'm guessing for the sake of keeping family peace than yes we will have a small thing probably more of a party- hey maybe we'll win the Stanley Cup and it will be a joint shindig!
Alright kids, I'm out. Seriously possibility of me dying from a bought with the flu. Promise I'll write another post soon!
Ellie: You commented that I probably shouldn't reference certain things and that you were able to figure out who I was talking about regarding the players wife who is preggers now and that she wouldn't be too happy for me discussing it. I'm going to call bull-shit on this, only because I didn't say anything bad about her- just saying the original story, her and her husband are absolutely beautiful together and ohhh yeah, we're still friends and she knows about the blog. So I call bullshit. Also, I'd like to point out that you should get an award if you can figure out the player and the wife I was speaking about. Because we're talking hundreds of options, ECHL, AHL, NHL and all those overseas teams. So thanks for reading but lets not try to stir the non existent pot!
Anny: "What do hockey players look for in girls?" Well my dear, that's a great question. What are you looking for from a hockey player? If you have a pussy and you like to fuck than you are probably going to make the cut for a hockey player. A lot of the guys will fuck anything- its terrible. The biggest pickup for them is that they play hockey and that's that. If you're looking for a one night thing than buy a guy a beer and bam. If you're wondering long term which is probably more so what your question was based of off; I don't know. What does any guy look for? I don't think it's necessarily anything different than a normal relationship. I've seen short girls, tall girls, petite ones and girls that are a little bit bigger than average. I think the biggest thing that they look for is someone who is compatible with not only them; but someone who can handle the lifestyle. You need to realize that it's not always glamorous. Your boyfriend/husband is away A LOT, you spend a lot of time ALONE and you need to exhibit a strong trust level to succeed. But I don't think it's anything specific; I think just like anyone else it just needs to click. The only advice I could give you when seeking a hockey player is to not be a puck bunny. Bunnies are jokes and are treated as such within the locker room.
Cailey: " love the post! How did the other wives and girlfriends react when you got married? Glad you had a nice break :)" I'm not the first eloper on the team! Thankfully! There was no judgment and they were all pretty okay with it... especially since a few of them were in Vegas with us! I did have one of the other girlfriends give me a bad attitude for a few days; but I learned it's because she asked her guy to get married in Vegas (drunken request) and she was denied. If only I had been so lucky hahahahaha JUST KIDDING!
Alemica: "Are you guys planning on having an 'actual' wedding? Like, with friends and family and stuff?" Well, if my Mother gets her way then yes. I really could care less. I've never really dreamed of a big wedding with all the bells and whistles. Its not something I was hell bent on having. But my mother is my polar opposite and would really love the opportunity to participate in an actual wedding. Mr. Right #1 and I are in talks regarding this; I think his parents would like to be included as well. I'll keep you updated; I'm guessing for the sake of keeping family peace than yes we will have a small thing probably more of a party- hey maybe we'll win the Stanley Cup and it will be a joint shindig!
Alright kids, I'm out. Seriously possibility of me dying from a bought with the flu. Promise I'll write another post soon!
Thursday, February 3, 2011
Oh sun, where have you gone?
I really enjoy getting questions from you guys; seriously I do. So don't be afraid to keep them coming.
I had this comment/questions from Aimee: Wow shocked at the marriage news! Congrats & good luck. I'm curious about how many years were in between your break-up and getting married? Did you stay in touch-off and on during this time? Did he care about you and Hockey Guy (his old roomie?)
This question took me a little off guard because you know what... I didn't really know the answer off the top of my head. So Mr. Right #1 and I dated from 05-07 (give or take a few months but that's a pretty fair guess) from the breakup in 07-09 we talked once in a while mostly at birthdays but I was SO genuinely hurt by him and what he did that I wanted nothing to do with him. I know you're probably wondering why I ended up with him if he hurt me so bad; but people change and I hurt him in a way as well. At the start of 2010 I was being a major fuck up and he got wind of it. Around this time, he broke up with the slut bag that he ruined our relationship for... I had a random blocked number call me and to my suprise it was him. Reluctantly I got coffee with him when he was in town and the coffee cleared the air. We didn't talk for a while again until he wanted to talk some more and I went to his hotel room (no sex with the ex) and I remembered a few things that I loved about it. It's fucked up and I'll be the first to admit that, but we just work. The first time we dated we were really young I'm talking 20. I don't know the average age of you guys (the readers) but the things that you want when you're 20 and the way you are when you're 20 are different than 5 years later. I'm still a complete fuck up, I do what I want when I want and up until we hit Vegas I did who I wanted as well. So, to answer the first question of the multi part question we dated from 05-07, then hooked back up in mid 2010 and fucked around on and off... I started to kind of want to be a thing again around umm Thanksgiving? Then we got married right after New Years. It's been an ongoing hate/love affair.
Did he care about me and his room mate? That's a great question... I don't know if he did or didn't if he did he never mentioned it. And if he had, I would have ripped him the fuck apart... after what he did to me he reserved NO right to have an opinion on what I did or who I did. Also, complete side note a lot of the time the players don't really care about who has fucked who. Two examples: Back when I was dating Mr. Right #2 (who I promise I'll give you a few stories about in the coming posts) there was a girl on the team who met a player at the bar... slept with him, went on ehhh 2 more dates? Then met his roomie, slept with HIM and hit it off- and the rest was history. They got married this past summer and she's newly pregnant! Fate works in weird ways eh? Another example would be the puck bunny; the girl who had slept with literally every player on the team for the past 3 seasons. The guys slept with her because it was such a fucking joke... I remember one night at a team party one of the guys had her come over and she slept with 3 different players one after the other. They all knew and no one cared. Girl had no problem with checking her self respect at the door and she was the laughing stock of the team... Wrapping it up- I don't know if Mr. Right #1 cared that I slept with him roomie and it's not something that I'm planning on bringing up anytime soon. If anything, I think he might have been okay with it because after I was destroyed as a person his roomie took care of me in a way that I needed.
And that wraps up the question portion of the night!!!
For those of you who are hockey fans you're aware that we just had the NHL All Star break, seriously its my favorite time of the season. I swear players almost pray that they DON'T get nominated just so they can have a little vacation. We had tons of fun in the sun albeit short; it was still much needed. Who doesn't love sun, sand, ocean and fucking your brains out. I've been super diligent about popping my birth control. Never mind me being able to not handle that little present; I think my family would disown me/potentially die from any more shock. Plus, in the hockey world just like planning your weddings (99% of the players get married in the summer cause it's the off season) most of the women plan on getting knocked up in the fall (Oct, Nov, Dec) so you can pop out the kid in the summer (June, July, Aug) that way Hubby can help out with the baby. I can't get pregnant now that would throw me under the bus and have me having a kid at the start of the hockey season during training camp and that would be REALLY stressful for everyone involved. Ahhhh just thinking about it makes my entire body tense up and I instantly want to google chastity belts! Then I remember how much I love my hubby (eeeek) fucking me and the world seems a little less stressful.... Oh sun, where have you gone? I miss All Star Break...
I had this comment/questions from Aimee: Wow shocked at the marriage news! Congrats & good luck. I'm curious about how many years were in between your break-up and getting married? Did you stay in touch-off and on during this time? Did he care about you and Hockey Guy (his old roomie?)
This question took me a little off guard because you know what... I didn't really know the answer off the top of my head. So Mr. Right #1 and I dated from 05-07 (give or take a few months but that's a pretty fair guess) from the breakup in 07-09 we talked once in a while mostly at birthdays but I was SO genuinely hurt by him and what he did that I wanted nothing to do with him. I know you're probably wondering why I ended up with him if he hurt me so bad; but people change and I hurt him in a way as well. At the start of 2010 I was being a major fuck up and he got wind of it. Around this time, he broke up with the slut bag that he ruined our relationship for... I had a random blocked number call me and to my suprise it was him. Reluctantly I got coffee with him when he was in town and the coffee cleared the air. We didn't talk for a while again until he wanted to talk some more and I went to his hotel room (no sex with the ex) and I remembered a few things that I loved about it. It's fucked up and I'll be the first to admit that, but we just work. The first time we dated we were really young I'm talking 20. I don't know the average age of you guys (the readers) but the things that you want when you're 20 and the way you are when you're 20 are different than 5 years later. I'm still a complete fuck up, I do what I want when I want and up until we hit Vegas I did who I wanted as well. So, to answer the first question of the multi part question we dated from 05-07, then hooked back up in mid 2010 and fucked around on and off... I started to kind of want to be a thing again around umm Thanksgiving? Then we got married right after New Years. It's been an ongoing hate/love affair.
Did he care about me and his room mate? That's a great question... I don't know if he did or didn't if he did he never mentioned it. And if he had, I would have ripped him the fuck apart... after what he did to me he reserved NO right to have an opinion on what I did or who I did. Also, complete side note a lot of the time the players don't really care about who has fucked who. Two examples: Back when I was dating Mr. Right #2 (who I promise I'll give you a few stories about in the coming posts) there was a girl on the team who met a player at the bar... slept with him, went on ehhh 2 more dates? Then met his roomie, slept with HIM and hit it off- and the rest was history. They got married this past summer and she's newly pregnant! Fate works in weird ways eh? Another example would be the puck bunny; the girl who had slept with literally every player on the team for the past 3 seasons. The guys slept with her because it was such a fucking joke... I remember one night at a team party one of the guys had her come over and she slept with 3 different players one after the other. They all knew and no one cared. Girl had no problem with checking her self respect at the door and she was the laughing stock of the team... Wrapping it up- I don't know if Mr. Right #1 cared that I slept with him roomie and it's not something that I'm planning on bringing up anytime soon. If anything, I think he might have been okay with it because after I was destroyed as a person his roomie took care of me in a way that I needed.
And that wraps up the question portion of the night!!!
For those of you who are hockey fans you're aware that we just had the NHL All Star break, seriously its my favorite time of the season. I swear players almost pray that they DON'T get nominated just so they can have a little vacation. We had tons of fun in the sun albeit short; it was still much needed. Who doesn't love sun, sand, ocean and fucking your brains out. I've been super diligent about popping my birth control. Never mind me being able to not handle that little present; I think my family would disown me/potentially die from any more shock. Plus, in the hockey world just like planning your weddings (99% of the players get married in the summer cause it's the off season) most of the women plan on getting knocked up in the fall (Oct, Nov, Dec) so you can pop out the kid in the summer (June, July, Aug) that way Hubby can help out with the baby. I can't get pregnant now that would throw me under the bus and have me having a kid at the start of the hockey season during training camp and that would be REALLY stressful for everyone involved. Ahhhh just thinking about it makes my entire body tense up and I instantly want to google chastity belts! Then I remember how much I love my hubby (eeeek) fucking me and the world seems a little less stressful.... Oh sun, where have you gone? I miss All Star Break...
Thursday, January 27, 2011
A fair inquiry.
- I thought NHL players had like no down time during the season...how did you guys go to Vegas? I'm just wondering. I'm not saying you didn't. Just wondering how much time NHL players get off and how long they spend at the rink/gym a day. It just seems if he is a good enough player to play in the NHL then he would be very busy. Anywho congrats! I wanted to take a minute to touch on this great question from Cailey; thanks for asking! Okay, so depending on game schedules you are correct in the no down time thing. Down time occurs during a few instances in the NHL being the following: 1) NHL All Star Break, which we are on beginning today- its about 4 days of down time where players fly home to see families or go to exotic places for a quick little vacation. Mr. Right and I are actually heading to Cabo for a few days leaving tomorrow morning. Its a mini honey-moon of sorts. 2) NHL players celebrate something called rookie night which without giving too much information away is about two days where if you're playing well the coach frees you of skating duties and you kind of "haze" the rookies on the team- rookies foot the bill for everything. Depending on your teams locations you head off to a whole bunch of locations for this to happen. When I was with Mr. Right #1 the first time the team he played for went to Montreal and got a little crazy. This time around its a different team and location wise the boys were able to go to Vegas. One night rookie night, the other is a party and play kind of night. The girlfriends and wives often head to said location for party and play night... then stay after the guys leave and have a spa girls day. So we both spent two days in Vegas, him with the guys, one together then he left. Me with him (marriage) and the next with the girls! I'm not sure how time off works for other teams, but our team usually has Sundays off- if you've been traveling a lot or playing well you get Monday off also. If the entire team is game to travel somewhere for rookie night than they fire up the jet and head off. Its pretty common. Hope that answers your question a bit. Also, players usually are at the rink about 4-5 hours a day. Mr. Right leaves the house around 8:30 am, gets to the rink at 9, does a workout for an hour in the gym then is on the ice for 1.5 hours, post game mini work out and has some food with the team (usually they get a catered something) then comes back home naps, plays video games, plays with the dog etc. Game days are entirely different and just have a pre-game skate from about 40 minutes. Any other questions that I can help with will totally be answered!
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
I hate ______ city
It's been a shock to my system, the whole re-learning how to live, date and love an NHLer. Sorry let me rephrase that; live, love and be married to an NHLer. I totally get why the divorce rate with athletes is so high. No its not because they randomly get liquored up and go to Vegas. Its because they play in shitty towns and go on the road for days at a time and leave there horny wives and girlfriends behind.
Broke the news to RS that I got married in Vegas. His response was pretty unexpected: "You married Mr. Right #1 even after he cheated on you; but you wouldn't take 1 step near the Vegas strip with me. I've never cheated on you babe"... correct RS you've never cheated on me for a multitude of reasons. The first being that we never really fully dated. We fuck a lot and it's hot. <---- was hot. Sorry, won't be happening again. Plus you didn't cheat on me because you wouldn't commit to me for fear of losing the chance to fuck everything with a pussy that looks in your direction. So yes RS you didn't cheat on me and if we had gotten married I'd be stuck in either a) a marriage full of sex, drugs and rock and roll or b) divorced and still fucking you, doing drugs and rockin' out... win win right? Well I guess I won't find out, because despite the way you play me and you play me hard, you bang the hell outta me- we won't be banging. I'll miss you.
If you guys were in shock about my marriage. You should have seen my mother's face via Skype when I flashed my rock and said that Mr. Right #1 and I got married. It was a mixture of pure disgust and euphoria. Followed by the question of: Are you pregnant? Is that why you did it? Yes, obviously I knew I was pregnant and thought "Hey why not completely fuck up the fetus by downing my body weight in Jose Cuervo". I've never been one to fear from speaking my mind... so no I'm not pregnant although if hubby has his way we will be soon. Doubling up on the birth control as we speak.
This post is a total ramble, but Im not used to the time difference. Its COLD. I'm horny, I have a RS trying to sext me and a husband playing a hockey game far away. My life is in turmoil and yeah I did it to myself but fuckkkkkkkk.... I need to get it together.
Broke the news to RS that I got married in Vegas. His response was pretty unexpected: "You married Mr. Right #1 even after he cheated on you; but you wouldn't take 1 step near the Vegas strip with me. I've never cheated on you babe"... correct RS you've never cheated on me for a multitude of reasons. The first being that we never really fully dated. We fuck a lot and it's hot. <---- was hot. Sorry, won't be happening again. Plus you didn't cheat on me because you wouldn't commit to me for fear of losing the chance to fuck everything with a pussy that looks in your direction. So yes RS you didn't cheat on me and if we had gotten married I'd be stuck in either a) a marriage full of sex, drugs and rock and roll or b) divorced and still fucking you, doing drugs and rockin' out... win win right? Well I guess I won't find out, because despite the way you play me and you play me hard, you bang the hell outta me- we won't be banging. I'll miss you.
If you guys were in shock about my marriage. You should have seen my mother's face via Skype when I flashed my rock and said that Mr. Right #1 and I got married. It was a mixture of pure disgust and euphoria. Followed by the question of: Are you pregnant? Is that why you did it? Yes, obviously I knew I was pregnant and thought "Hey why not completely fuck up the fetus by downing my body weight in Jose Cuervo". I've never been one to fear from speaking my mind... so no I'm not pregnant although if hubby has his way we will be soon. Doubling up on the birth control as we speak.
This post is a total ramble, but Im not used to the time difference. Its COLD. I'm horny, I have a RS trying to sext me and a husband playing a hockey game far away. My life is in turmoil and yeah I did it to myself but fuckkkkkkkk.... I need to get it together.
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Failure 101
Honestly, no words can describe how sorry I am about leaving ya'll behind. My life has been in a huge tailspin since my last posting. Its been a fucking good tailspin but a tailspin nonetheless. I'm a failure in the writing category but I'll try to be better.
I can't even remember where I last left you, but after sex with the ex something clicked. In all my life I would have never foreseen being with Mr. Right #1 again. People always say that there was a reason things didn't work out the first time. That reason was about 5' 8" blond and had boobs straight out of Playboy; big and fake. My polar opposite and beyond the boobs and height she wasn't anything special. No, I don't say that because she was my arch nemesis. I'm the first to admit when another girl is pretty; I don't have issues with that. But she just wasn't that great. Yes, she ruined my cookie cutter existence so I was pre-disposed to hating her. Technicality.
Anyways, the reason I've been MIA the last few weeks is because I'm back together with the ex. I mentioned that in the last posting. Well, things went into a tailspin when we went to Vegas. People... stay away from Vegas just run in the opposite direction of it. Whoever came up with the phrase "Whatever happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas" should be shot. Seriously, because I went to Vegas and I'm now officially Mrs. Right #1. Touche if you just said out loud that I'm a fucking idiot. My sentiments exactly, but I'm happy so sue me. Do I know if it will work out this go around? No. Am I right back to where I started? Yes. Did I accidentally go into a sexting frenzy with RS the same day that I said "I do" on the Vegas strip? Yes.But what's a little sexting on your wedding day when your husband actually went through with the act and ended your relationship the first go round? I'm so fucked. So, so, so, so, soooooo fucked.
Hockey players, Rock Stars, Tequila and Vegas will be the death of me. I'm sure of it. But for now my husband the NHL player is on the road and I'm staying in a bachelor pad that he shares with a team mate in a ridiculous city waiting for him to come back. Best part of being married to an NHL player is the sudden increase in my lingerie spending allowance....
I can't even remember where I last left you, but after sex with the ex something clicked. In all my life I would have never foreseen being with Mr. Right #1 again. People always say that there was a reason things didn't work out the first time. That reason was about 5' 8" blond and had boobs straight out of Playboy; big and fake. My polar opposite and beyond the boobs and height she wasn't anything special. No, I don't say that because she was my arch nemesis. I'm the first to admit when another girl is pretty; I don't have issues with that. But she just wasn't that great. Yes, she ruined my cookie cutter existence so I was pre-disposed to hating her. Technicality.
Anyways, the reason I've been MIA the last few weeks is because I'm back together with the ex. I mentioned that in the last posting. Well, things went into a tailspin when we went to Vegas. People... stay away from Vegas just run in the opposite direction of it. Whoever came up with the phrase "Whatever happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas" should be shot. Seriously, because I went to Vegas and I'm now officially Mrs. Right #1. Touche if you just said out loud that I'm a fucking idiot. My sentiments exactly, but I'm happy so sue me. Do I know if it will work out this go around? No. Am I right back to where I started? Yes. Did I accidentally go into a sexting frenzy with RS the same day that I said "I do" on the Vegas strip? Yes.But what's a little sexting on your wedding day when your husband actually went through with the act and ended your relationship the first go round? I'm so fucked. So, so, so, so, soooooo fucked.
Hockey players, Rock Stars, Tequila and Vegas will be the death of me. I'm sure of it. But for now my husband the NHL player is on the road and I'm staying in a bachelor pad that he shares with a team mate in a ridiculous city waiting for him to come back. Best part of being married to an NHL player is the sudden increase in my lingerie spending allowance....
Sunday, January 2, 2011
New Year... Same Old Me
Sorry that I've been MIA for about a week; had some stuff come up and posting just wasn't possible. I've been travelling a lot for work/ personal fucking time. When I last left you, I had sex with my ex. Well I've had sex with the ex a few times since that posting.
I'm an idiot. Really there is no way around that, plain and simple. I'm an idiot. I admit it, I accept it and I'm a fucking happy little idiot so whatever.
The white flag has been waved and after 2.5 years of dating Mr. Right #1 and then breaking up with Mr. Right #1, falling in love with Mr. Right #2 and then breaking up with Mr. Right #2. Fucking an entire spectrum of pro athletes and a few rock stars because I was in the position and able too.
Now here I am day 2 of the New Year, in a state that isn't the one I live in. Possibly starting the year off with a mistake or a new beginning with an old flame. Here I am with a pro hockey player that I loved all along...
Maybe Mr. Right #1 despite all our shit has been just that. Mr. Right.
I'm so fucked.
I'm an idiot. Really there is no way around that, plain and simple. I'm an idiot. I admit it, I accept it and I'm a fucking happy little idiot so whatever.
The white flag has been waved and after 2.5 years of dating Mr. Right #1 and then breaking up with Mr. Right #1, falling in love with Mr. Right #2 and then breaking up with Mr. Right #2. Fucking an entire spectrum of pro athletes and a few rock stars because I was in the position and able too.
Now here I am day 2 of the New Year, in a state that isn't the one I live in. Possibly starting the year off with a mistake or a new beginning with an old flame. Here I am with a pro hockey player that I loved all along...
Maybe Mr. Right #1 despite all our shit has been just that. Mr. Right.
I'm so fucked.
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